4 Days Away

Me at my heaviest 282 pounds

I am currently 4 days away from my Gastric Bypass surgery. The past week and a half has been very difficult on this liquid diet. Its hard when you get hungry to instead of reaching for a sandwich to have to drink a protein shake. Sure it keeps you strong and you get all the nutrients you need, but I didn't realize how nice it was to be able to pick out what I want to eat and enjoy it. When I get hungry I drink an protein shake, have jell-o or I can drink water. That's not a lot of variety, and your choices get boring very quickly. BUT I have been sticking too it and have been filling my days with cleaning the house instead of thinking about what I'm going to make my husband for dinner. One of the great things that has come out of this is that I have already lost 20 pounds. Unfortunately, from the time of my first appointment and the start of my liquid diet I had gained 6 pounds. I shot back up to my heaviest weight, 282. I am now 262 and even though I have dropped 20 pounds and people have said to me "see you can lose the weight why don't you just cancel your surgery?" I cant! I noticed that I lost about 3 pounds a day when I started the diet but now I am lucky if I lose 1 pound every 3 days. The weight loss slows down and it eventually stops. I cant live on a liquid diet the rest of my life. So I am going to continue with my plans for the surgery.

I had my past doctors appointment yesterday and they said all my lab tests came back great. This is really it. I am finally going to have weight loss surgery. My husband tells me I should start buying smaller clothes when I see them all sale, but I cant. I cannot convince myself to buy smaller clothes to get ready for my post-op weight because in a way I don't feel like I deserve those clothes yet. So I am going to wait until my clothes are falling off, and then I will have to go shopping with my girl Catrina.

I just want the next 4 days to fly by so I can get closer to my surgery. I cant wait to start healing and see the results of hard work. I am still working out and I'm actually starting to really enjoy it. Well, I suppose the next time I'll be writing is after my surgery. Please keep me in your prayers. See you all then!

Everything Changes in April

I am so excited I now know when I am going to be having surgery. Markus and I received a call yesterday when we were on our way back to Savannah from Cumming, and we were told that April 28th was my day! The only bad thing is that I did not get a change to eat my favorite things before I have to say goodbye to them. But I think for me that was perfect, because it doesn't have me craving anything. I suppose its kind of perfect...April is having surgery in April. I'm really excited and I just want these next two weeks to fly by. I started my two week diet today and its not been that bad, but it does make you very tired. They say the first 3 days are the worst and then it gets better. I had my last preop class today so I am officially ready for surgery. I'm really excited but I'm also scared. Actually, when I was on the phone with the doctors office I was getting very sick to my stomach. This is a BIG DEAL! Its going to be completely different. I just pray that everything goes well and that there are no complications. Please keep me in your prayers.