4 Days Away

Me at my heaviest 282 pounds

I am currently 4 days away from my Gastric Bypass surgery. The past week and a half has been very difficult on this liquid diet. Its hard when you get hungry to instead of reaching for a sandwich to have to drink a protein shake. Sure it keeps you strong and you get all the nutrients you need, but I didn't realize how nice it was to be able to pick out what I want to eat and enjoy it. When I get hungry I drink an protein shake, have jell-o or I can drink water. That's not a lot of variety, and your choices get boring very quickly. BUT I have been sticking too it and have been filling my days with cleaning the house instead of thinking about what I'm going to make my husband for dinner. One of the great things that has come out of this is that I have already lost 20 pounds. Unfortunately, from the time of my first appointment and the start of my liquid diet I had gained 6 pounds. I shot back up to my heaviest weight, 282. I am now 262 and even though I have dropped 20 pounds and people have said to me "see you can lose the weight why don't you just cancel your surgery?" I cant! I noticed that I lost about 3 pounds a day when I started the diet but now I am lucky if I lose 1 pound every 3 days. The weight loss slows down and it eventually stops. I cant live on a liquid diet the rest of my life. So I am going to continue with my plans for the surgery.

I had my past doctors appointment yesterday and they said all my lab tests came back great. This is really it. I am finally going to have weight loss surgery. My husband tells me I should start buying smaller clothes when I see them all sale, but I cant. I cannot convince myself to buy smaller clothes to get ready for my post-op weight because in a way I don't feel like I deserve those clothes yet. So I am going to wait until my clothes are falling off, and then I will have to go shopping with my girl Catrina.

I just want the next 4 days to fly by so I can get closer to my surgery. I cant wait to start healing and see the results of hard work. I am still working out and I'm actually starting to really enjoy it. Well, I suppose the next time I'll be writing is after my surgery. Please keep me in your prayers. See you all then!